~ Life is like Fairy tales~
When we were young, i believed many of us have been told fairytales and mythical stories. the ending was always " And they lived happily ever after". this created an illusion in most of us, that in fairytales, there will always be a happy ending, that love is true, that you will find your prince charming/beauty and lived happily ever after. Many wished that their lives will be like fairytales, with a happy ending to it.But if we questioned our parents, married couples or even just couples, are they with the one they truely loved? the one that they cant live without? some may say yes, that they have found their true love.but some may say otherwise, that they lost their true love to someone else. How often can reality be like those stories we heard over and over again when we were young? that we will never know.
Through mjc overseas CIP selection camp, i found out many things. Like in the true and actual fairytales, there were never a happy ending, everyone died.Cinderella, sleeping beauty, practically every characters died or suffered. there were no " And they lived happily ever after". So when people say they want their lives to be like those in the tales, do they really want such lives?
A few hours after camp, when i thought my life was running smoothly for once, something put a halt to it, bringing it back to the starting line.not to the starting line, but further away from it.i thought i was helping my friend, being there to listen. but the stuffs i was told shattered me once again.It left me living through each days aimlessly. It was until i went out with friends which made me realised that i shouldnt let such person hurt me.In the past yes.But now no more. I hate myself for allowing that person to hurt me, allowing myself to lose all hope, happiness and dreams. i hate myself for not picking myself up.for wallowing in the sorrow that i knew will never be gone till i do something. Im in charge of my life, why did i let sorrow control my life. In the past, i didnt treasure the ones i loved, lost some in the process.but i learn..and will continue to do so. what that person will do or say, i will not let it hurt me anymore. What he let out brought some comfort to him, but tore my whole life apart. i should hate him for doing so, especially after all the efforts i put in to bring my life back to the path i wanted..some say i should seek revenge, let him feel what im going through. but whats the point i asked them.will it bring me happiness? will it bring him back to me? will i feel better..the answer will always be "no". it will bring me a moment of comfort..but a lifetime of regrets. that friend was someone important to me..and will always be. Life goes on.The world does not stop turning…even after Lifeblows. I miss the adeline that will never bow her head to difficulties but will face it and dissolve it. I will be stronger and smarter. learning the skills of being able to differentiate true love from just a fleeting love. I made mistakes that remove the one i love.that was in the past. But if anyone still think of hurting me, when my life is moving on smoothly..my answer to that person is "DREAM ON! "
I learnt that fairy tales do exist, the actual one does..not those we heard when we were young. Life will go on and i will live each day according to how i want it to be and not what others want it to be. To that person: thanks for teaching me so much these few years. you brought me closer to father God. you let me know that i was wrong, that my instincts are always right, that i should always listen to them. You taught me patience and temper management. thank you. You brought ultimate happiness into my life but with it was also unhappiness..But i will grow and be stronger once again.wishing us happiness and health..
haha ok..enough of typing..gotta go liao..mommy chasing
~ Picking myself up and stronger than before(i hope) ~
