Thursday, October 26, 2006
My morning starts to shine with teardrops in my eyes
And here i am alone starting to realize
That my days would be brighter
If i could learn to hide
The feelings that i have for you
Keep hurting me inside
Then my day begins with simple thoughts of you
Hoping that tomorrow will be me and you
Sharing dreams with each other
And making them come true
Holding one another
Saying "all i need is you"
But will you say that you love me
And show me that you care
Say when i need you
You will always be there
But if you go and leave me
This i swear is true
My love will always be with you
Now my nights would end with just one wish, that's you
To hold me in the dark and help me make it through
'cause the pain that's inside me
Would simply melt away
If i had you here with me
And promise me you'd stay
But will you say that you love me
And show me that you care
Say when i need you
You will always be there
But if you go and leave me
This i swear is true
My love will always be with you
(instrumental)
But will you say that you love me
And show me that you care
Say when i need you
You will always be there
But if you go and leave me
This i swear is true
My love will always
My love will always be with you
she told
the story ...
11:19 PM
Monday, October 09, 2006
고마워할게요 – 별
이제 그대는 떠나면 나 혼자 남아서
그대가 그리워서 참 많이 울겠죠
그대 정말 보고싶어도 볼 수 없겠죠
그대여 부디 행복해요
그대가 보고 싶어도 찾아가면 않되고
목소릴 듣고 싶어도 꾹 참고
사랑했던 기억도 이젠 말하면 않되고
마음속에 묻어야겠죠
이젠 내곁에 그대가 다신 없겠지만
그래도 항상 그댈 잊지 않을게요
그대와 함께 내가 얼마나 행복했는지
떠올리면서 웃을께요
고마워요
자고나면 처음으로 그대가 없겠네요
언제나 그대에게 먼저 전활 걸었는데
밤이되서 자기전에도 그댄 없겠네요
하지만 익숙해 지겠죠
난 그대를 조금도 미워할 수 가 없잖아요
내가 싫어질 수 도 있는건데
영화에서 본 것처럼 웃으며 보낼래요
이젠 모두 추억이네요 오~
이젠 내곁에 그대가 다신 없겠지만(없겠지만)
그래도 항상 그댈 잊지 않을게요(my baby~)
그대와 함께 내가 얼마나 행복했는지
떠올리면서 웃을께요
눈물이나도 언제나 고마워할께요
그만큼 행복했었단 얘기니까요
남들은 해보지도 못한 사랑을 해봤고(사랑을 해봤고)
갖을수 없는 추억도 있으니까요
she told
the story ...
8:15 PM
Sunday, October 08, 2006
Happy Birthday to Me!
1year past by so quickly.Its my birthday again! I'm officially 18! haha.
But frankly, i don't feel much different.When i was young, i used to think 16 would be special.It was. I used to think 17 would get better.It was less special more normal. I used to think 18 would be when i'm matured and all.I'm the way i am now.See any maturity diff? =P
But i can certainly say that this was one truely unique and memorable birthday...
The plan was to study with ben at nlb, great way to spend my bday.yup.hehe.not much sarcasm here.serious.=P Thought aud and jon might join.so it seems.
But...
This was their plan.aud jon and ben's.It all started like this...
I was in my room getting ready, combing my hair when the phone rang. Deep inside i was hoping its him.Weird that till now i still hold some hopes,but its something i cant control. *picks up phone*. It was a weird woman voice.Early morning usual im grouchy.But since its my bday, pleasant mood."Look out of ur window". Frankly it didnt immediately came to me that is aud and jon. So i went out and look.There it was. A big box at my gate.But i couldnt find them.Haha.they found a new hiding place.=) But aud's movement gave her away after my 2nd search attempt.haha. Sorry you guys had to wait for me to get ready. Hopefully kelly and the 2 chicks were of good hosts =).I really appreciate all of your efforts to prepare the presents(including eating 18 eggs!) yesterday and waking up so early this morning to surprise me and spending part of your morning making my 18th birthday special.*hugs* Love you guys!.
Through our conversation, i found out that ben actually knew about it all along and he pretended not to.ben ben ben.lol.to make things more fun, ben said he had a flower for me.Sweet of him.*grins*. We had breakfast at bugis mac where aud and jon ordered the happy meals with ben and my supervisions =P hehe.But as usual, i dripped some maple syrup on my pants.yikes! hehe.ben to the rescue with hankies! haha.what would i do without his tissues =P
Finally we reached nlb, with aud and jon as they wanna see what type of flower.well..its a flower lolly! but nope, i aint gonna eat it, that is one wrapping i aint gonna unwrap.=). Guess who i met at nlb! My daddy Jason (hints to yan cheng). hehe.it was great, i was missing the time spent with him and there he was.with 2 seats, just nice for ben and me.hmm..maybe it was for someone.oh wells.subsequently it was peaceful and stomachfull too. Since yesterday i seem to be stuffin myself. Yesterday it was Carl's Jr.I ate the whole burger and fries and 2 medium drinks.The 1st accomplishment of me being almost 18.hehe.Then it was creamy linguine for lunch today and seafood for dinner.*bloated* Is there any space for strawberry cake? *grins*.
hai...a sigh of contentment but lost hopes too. You can't blame a girl for wanting to spend her special day with her special someone.Like what des said, spend your day wisely, dont waste it. To him, a greeting from her would be great.To me, a day with him would make my 18th birthday memorable.But today wasnt a waste, it didnt feel like one. But i guess the feeling that something is missing remains.Or am i psycho-ing myself? Do i really still love and miss him? Or has these feelings become part of me, undetachable and somehow comforting?
You know something interesting...
I am 18 this year
My birthday is on the 8 of October = 8 +10=18
I had a present of 18 eggs.
hehe.coincidence.But i do like my birth date alot alot. 8/10/88.hehe.
Made Happy by my loved ones...*grins*
she told
the story ...
9:30 PM
