~Love~
Life is better, as compared to beginning of the year,except occasional tempers*sighs*. But was the last 2 years better? with you by my side, with your strong arms around me, feeling the warmth of your body, knowing im safe in your arms, that you will always protect me.But we left what we treasured so dear behind us, moving on with life..Or is it only you moving on, with me watching your fading shadows.I tried convincing myself that i have moved on, maybe i did.maybe i didnt.conversations are rare, only when i needed your comfort or when im injured, you would always turn back to pull me up.but moving on the moment im fine.can you be by my side once again? like we used to? im confused.im still in love with you, but with my heart pining for you and someone else.is it possible to love a person but like another? its possible as said by friends, but could i bring myself to do that? to fully move on, away from what we left behind.comparisons constantly fill my mind,reminding me that i love you.but he brought back happiness and laughters into my empty life.the life that was shattered with our agreements. he put a smile on my face, hopes back into my life, numbing the pain left in my heart with your departure.Should i like him? will it be fair to him? knowing that there will always be a place for you in my heart.should i let this continue, or deceive myself that i have no feelings for him. the one i love doesnt respond, but the one that i have no feelings for keep responding.why is love so weird? missing you alot, even short msgs like "how are you" brightens up my day and week.was it fate or destiny that when im blogging this, you talked to me, caring for me? maybe its just plain luck, coincidence? im confused, but sure that i still love you..
~Loving you has become a habit~
