~To love is nice...
To be loved is a blessing...
To love and Be loved is a nice blessing~
This could be a continued post from the previous, very subjective again,Should i have a confession post..maybe i should hehe..yesterday and today i was a good girl. very obedient too.hehe.. why? Because he called. a short and simple reason.
How come? some may ask. because daddy picked up the phone and could recognise his voice.and from his reaction, mummy knew who was on the other line.And they rather i concentrate on my studies then relationships, so oh well, lets listen to them for 1 more year, since they have given their approval that after 2months after i turned 18, i can once again enter a rs..
Fate seems so weird.
when it seems i have sort of forgotten about him,fate would find some ways to let him into my life again.
Be it a one-sided meeting
Be it a msn Conversation
Be it a need to go to places where we shared so many memories
Be a simple phone call
He called, maybe it wasnt fate, but my own doings, subconsciously trying to keep a part of him in my life, even as a friend.
Some says i should let go and move on. Im trying people.
Some says its good to have memories and not forget them.I kept them well and will continue to do so, to learn from them, to have some impossible dreams, or simply they are too dear for me to let go.
I borrowed his cap, i truely needed it. I intended to just drop by at his place to return to him, through his maid or family members.as i could bring myself to see him, even how much i want to. So many times, i suggest days that i could go down, when he aint at home, leave a msg and bye. But he said no no..or sometimes wrong timings..
He called, to meet and he need his cap for camp.
i bought him 2 caps, one white and one blue..both same design. expensive, but he love them and still do. he didnt want to dirty the white one, so he needed the blue one. i teased him, calling him a slot, needing to slot him into my schedule. he joked back saying he is a priority not a slot..and the whole conversation was simply on when was i free and his job.."arguing" when is better..but it has to end. the conversation. i knew it would be better that i end the conversation.So i did.
Was it fate? Is it controllable or not? i think its both
Wed or Thurs.to meet him. Thurs would be a rush for us.Wed wouldnt.Naturally we would choose Wed.But wed would be 9Nov.
Sometimes i wish he would stay out.so that i could forget him, or at least keep him in mind and heart, but move on.
Moving on abit...
Signals are weird..or simply boys are weird.lol.how long can a guy like a girl and not express it. seriously. seeing my friends guessing their way through, wondering if that guy likes them.if you like someone, say it out. there isnt much to lose..really..weighed the pros and cons b4 and the pros outweighs the cons.hehe..But even if it doesnt, we are only given one time, some twice.we only have one 6nov 05..is it worth not grabbing the opportunity. its so close to you. but u rather let it slip by.sometimes breaking the girl's heart. Is it worth?
To love is nice..
To be loved is a blessing..
To love and to be loved (in return) is a nice blessing
Who doesnt wish to be loved? even if its a one-sided love, both feel good.the receiver simply because she is loved. the giver..because he at least he tried..
some waits a lifetime to be loved
why?
because some words are just left unspoken..
~Drowning in memories, will you save me? ~
