Saturday, December 31, 2005
*Continuing from yesterday...*
In an hr and 45 mins time, it would be a new year...so fast its gonna be a new year...
But the only thing that change is probably your age, the year...
Aims, wishes and dreams might change with time...but the basic foundation should remain strong as time passes by...
A year is about is end...
lets take a walk down memory lane shall we? or should we just keep everything inside..with occasional recounts? The former has it benefits for the weak memory power of my brain...so we shall begin ya?
At the beginning...
Life took a sudden change..more of a stop than a step forward.The results? one major confused girl...lost, upset with major confusion in both the head and heart...Remained in that position for months with friends, new and old entering my life.
A great friend by my side, pushing me forward, clearing barriers in my way. He offered a shoulder to cry on, a listening ear when no one seem to understand me. But through the whole year, he provided both comfort and scoldings.Scoldings and lectures when nothing seems to get into my head, or should i say my heart..haha..thank bro...for your advice and presence..love ya...
That is the love part of the beginning, the rest? life was the same as usual. Except being more hectic and the change of emotions..
In the middle...
It was the usuals...studyin, playin, thinkin about stuff,worryin about the exams, tests etc..
The end, which is now?
life seem to be fastforwarded uh..yeap..cause the usual short and selective memory of mine only permits certain memories to stay...
Now, stuck at home while friends are partying at esplanade..the thought of everyone having fun and the missed opportunities to meet up with old friends make me feel so argh..17 years old...17 years of being at home during new year eve..awwwww..
But, being with family is great time spent still...another peaceful new year celebration...next year..which is like in 35 mins time, i might be able to go out and celebrate..why hurry when you will get the chance to party without curfews in the future? thats what mummy said..plenty of truth to it...why hurry to club when you will get the chance to next time...its just the feeling of missing out on the fun and excitement i guessed.. and being with friends on such occasions!!
The results of stayin home instead of going out? laughters and great time spent with family...
i cut my parrot's nails!!daddy hold her and i cut..lol..funny scene..with her nibbling on daddy's fingers..using her beak to "protect" her feet..she even used another claw to hold the other..like holding hands..heart warming and hilarious thing was she came to me despite me being the one holding the scissors..she rejected my daddy, mummy and kor kor s' attempts to get her on their shoulders. we had to do so as daddy gotta hold her..and she willing climb onto my shoulders and hid behind my pony tail..lol..loving her more and more =)
Moving on...
everyone helped out in preparing dinner, daddy bought ingredients, kor kor cooked his curry, mummy and i cooked egg..lol..2 people to do a 1 man job? lol.. i prepared the eggs..she cooked it..lol..teamwork!! minor yet major ...hehe..
Chatting online now..hmmm..a question was asked by ben...
How does it feel being single?
hmmm..my reply:
Great and awful at the same time...
Great as i have more freedom, less committments and worries... and sometimes one less factor to consider during decison makings...
Awful as something is missing..even till now...but aint really searching for the missing piece ..more of waiting for it to come back into my life..as i almost figured out what is missing..
It takes 2 hands to clap..so all i can do now is wait and carry on with the rest of my life..with the memories of the missin piece forever in my heart and mind...
Life goes on...
with great family and friends by my side,
with him in my heart and thoughts,
with love and faith in God,
with hopes and dreams of the future,
with determination and perseverance,
~Take care and God bless~
*HAppy New YEar and have a GREAT year ahead guys !!*
she told
the story ...
10:40 PM
Friday, December 30, 2005
Time
Time passes by so quickly...
Its been almost a year and many things have taken place through this period of time...both good and bad...
*To be continued soon*
she told
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5:49 PM
Thursday, December 22, 2005
Quiz time
Haven't been updating my blog. Why? Was it my mood? Was it the events that took place? Or simply, some things are better left unsaid and unknown to others? This entry was made possible through boredom. Went blog surfing and chanced upon a quiz in Cher's blog, so decided there is probably no harm trying it out...so yeap..here goes...
Get to know yourself better
Your view on yourself:
You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.
The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.
Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.
The seriousness of your love:
You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?
Your views on education
Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.
The right job for you:
You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.
How do you view success:
You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.
What are you most afraid of:You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel.
Who is your true self:
You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.
How true is it ? Abit uh..here and there i think..hehe..it seems weird to be feeling both numb and hurt at the same time. Numb from feeling hurt for so long..Hurt because of what happened..
How quickly time passes by...
she told
the story ...
4:25 PM
Thursday, December 01, 2005
~Emotions~
after many days of thoughts and considerations, im still lost in many emotions...
happiness...
confusion...
frustration...
longing for someone...
Life just seems so incomplete without him, a missing piece that im unable to find and even replace...
2 people came into my life..and my heart...
one i know i like him...another just came because he wish to..weird guy, the latter...
like cant you get my hints to back off? haha..nvm...sooner or later he will get it...
No one can replace him...took me quite some time to realise..No wonder del says i keep comparing..making comparisons and always going back to where i started...
But the truth is the truth...no one is as sweet as him, as caring as him..etc...
No number of sweet whispers can ever win my heart over to him..
hmmm...so...actually..there is only 2 guys in my heart, my ex and my crush...
the other..argh..kick him out = X haha..just joking..will just show him the way out..yeap..thats what i should do.. = )
~Enlightenment?~
she told
the story ...
9:53 PM
