*Continuing from yesterday...*
In an hr and 45 mins time, it would be a new year...so fast its gonna be a new year...
But the only thing that change is probably your age, the year...
Aims, wishes and dreams might change with time...but the basic foundation should remain strong as time passes by...
A year is about is end...
lets take a walk down memory lane shall we? or should we just keep everything inside..with occasional recounts? The former has it benefits for the weak memory power of my brain...so we shall begin ya?
At the beginning...
Life took a sudden change..more of a stop than a step forward.The results? one major confused girl...lost, upset with major confusion in both the head and heart...Remained in that position for months with friends, new and old entering my life.
A great friend by my side, pushing me forward, clearing barriers in my way. He offered a shoulder to cry on, a listening ear when no one seem to understand me. But through the whole year, he provided both comfort and scoldings.Scoldings and lectures when nothing seems to get into my head, or should i say my heart..haha..thank bro...for your advice and presence..love ya...
That is the love part of the beginning, the rest? life was the same as usual. Except being more hectic and the change of emotions..
In the middle...
It was the usuals...studyin, playin, thinkin about stuff,worryin about the exams, tests etc..
The end, which is now?
life seem to be fastforwarded uh..yeap..cause the usual short and selective memory of mine only permits certain memories to stay...
Now, stuck at home while friends are partying at esplanade..the thought of everyone having fun and the missed opportunities to meet up with old friends make me feel so argh..17 years old...17 years of being at home during new year eve..awwwww..
But, being with family is great time spent still...another peaceful new year celebration...next year..which is like in 35 mins time, i might be able to go out and celebrate..why hurry when you will get the chance to party without curfews in the future? thats what mummy said..plenty of truth to it...why hurry to club when you will get the chance to next time...its just the feeling of missing out on the fun and excitement i guessed.. and being with friends on such occasions!!
The results of stayin home instead of going out? laughters and great time spent with family...
i cut my parrot's nails!!daddy hold her and i cut..lol..funny scene..with her nibbling on daddy's fingers..using her beak to "protect" her feet..she even used another claw to hold the other..like holding hands..heart warming and hilarious thing was she came to me despite me being the one holding the scissors..she rejected my daddy, mummy and kor kor s' attempts to get her on their shoulders. we had to do so as daddy gotta hold her..and she willing climb onto my shoulders and hid behind my pony tail..lol..loving her more and more =)
Moving on...
everyone helped out in preparing dinner, daddy bought ingredients, kor kor cooked his curry, mummy and i cooked egg..lol..2 people to do a 1 man job? lol.. i prepared the eggs..she cooked it..lol..teamwork!! minor yet major ...hehe..
Chatting online now..hmmm..a question was asked by ben...
How does it feel being single?
hmmm..my reply:
Great and awful at the same time...
Great as i have more freedom, less committments and worries... and sometimes one less factor to consider during decison makings...
Awful as something is missing..even till now...but aint really searching for the missing piece ..more of waiting for it to come back into my life..as i almost figured out what is missing..
It takes 2 hands to clap..so all i can do now is wait and carry on with the rest of my life..with the memories of the missin piece forever in my heart and mind...
Life goes on...
with great family and friends by my side,
with him in my heart and thoughts,
with love and faith in God,
with hopes and dreams of the future,
with determination and perseverance,
~Take care and God bless~
*HAppy New YEar and have a GREAT year ahead guys !!*
