Happy Lunar NEw YEar !!!
So fast its gonna be chinese new year again...how fast time flies...so fast till there wasnt time to blog =X hehe...so lets rewind back to the time..erm..whatever i can remember...
Nov 2005 - Jan 2006
hmmm...finally i got into an A*star programme = ) After 2 attempts, finally the effort paid off...the 1st 2 attempts were for IMCB attachment programme and dentistry attachment. Sadly both i only managed to scrap through the 1st 2 interviews...hmmm...but do you think i would have made it for the dentistry one if i didnt tell the teachers that i had an overseas cip expedition? hmm...i might have gotten in..but can i get past my conscience? nah...dont think so.So i guessed what i did was correct...at least morally right? hehe..
Oh wells...back to the year 2006. Hmmm...when ms wang told us about this IMCB programme..i felt a mixture of feelings..a sense of anticipation, happiness, excitement but also surge of disappointment. Disappointment as i was rejected twice..can i take a 3rd rejection? haha..." this is the 1st time i will be rejected thrice by the same person" thats what i said..well, dont blame me in trying to find something good out of something disastrous...was hoping that JAC can make it in...jas daddy, me and cher godmama..all 3 of us = )
But...as usual fate is always making a fool out of me...that didnt happen...hai...not that going with Alex, yi cheng and kwee haan was bad..but probably the joy of going with cher and jas was something i was hoping for...Things turned out quite well..full of fun and surprises!
25-27 JAn 2006: Biopolis Proteos IMCB
Alex, Yi cheng, Kwee Haan and me gotten into IMCB attachment programme! yeah ! 05S201 dominates the prog..muahaha..hehe..oops..anyway..look above ar...it said attachment programme..erm..attachment for 3 days? weird uh..we were told that we were supposed to assist a researcher in his studies..that was told to everyone..erm..i asked the other peeps who were there..
In the end...it was...a research outreach programme! It aint that bad, very enriching, fun etc..
Come to think of it, you know why the teachers of all the schools were told those stuff? cause as compared to other ROP provided by IMCB..this was probably one of the least attractive one..as said by the researcher there..hehe..so who can blame them..no one..cause we enjoyed..made many friends, had great time together = )
This is all of us..Consisting of Dunman High, Dunman Sec, Ngee Ann Sec (My Sec sch*grins*), Nanyang Girls, Raffles Girls, Spore Chinese Girls, Hwa Chong Insti. JC, MJC and JJC..erm...its according to level and alpha..hehe..
Day 1: Hi peeps...silence...murmurs among each groups..everyone almost kept to their own groups..Thanks to Genie..he is our chief mentor (he is a HE ...not a SHE kays). He separated us into pairs..Alex with ke qin..Yi cheng with joshua, kwee haan with jezer (my junior!) me with audrey..hehe..basically there was minimal interaction between the schools..minimal meaning there was still friendly nods and chats .
Day 2: we were more active and interactive as we began to open up to everyone..partially thanks to many group works..the details ..erm..lets just keep them in my memories..hehe..at the end of the day, we were bargainin with genie and the other mentors to let us off early tomorrow..In the end, we settled for a 9:30 assembly the next day..*crossed fingers and prayed we can end early tmr*
Day 3: The last day. Bench 1-3 sorta form a group..while bench 4-6 another as there were many times we had excursions around the building in such arrangements..So fun!! those moments.. there were blowing of air into gloves...drawings on the balloons and ball games..haha..the glove-balloons-chicken little hit yc head a few times! haha..but he left to the workstations after awhile..party pooper! hehe..still..we bonded..things sorta quieten down after lunch..quieten down as in there was lesser physical and more vocal..hehe..we had singing sessions = ) we as in peeps from benches 4 to 6..when genie and the rest were out. Singing session was led by Chris-Tin..boy was her singing great! serious..she is good..thanks babe! for the music..the attempts in tryin to keep we 2 warm in the cold room (4 degree celsius) and just being you !
we were sorta running around in the lab, asking for emails and numbers..genie..he was just watching..as we didnt have much to do as our samples were getting themselves antibodified and dyed! hehe..phototaking was fun..with a serious photographer..stern he was for us to quieten down and settle down to take the pics..there was the dissection of mice..*heart shattering* *sighs* why must we subject animals to such treatments..for the sake of human survival..sounds familiar bio peeps? survival of the fittest, part of darwin's theory.sad..but it still fascinates me.
I truely miss you guys...the balloons games, singin sessions, mass lunching at Subways, jokes shared and enjoyed by everyone..it was just great! May fate bring us together again, like it did this time = ) now that we have one another emails..its all the more easier? hehe
Talking about Fate.
After 3 attempts, i finally gotten into an A*star prog. It was an attempt to prove that life goes on even with you out of it. An attempt i stressed..for as usual, it almost fail again.There were many moments when the past tried to come back to haunt me..many attempts made by the past..
Thinking it was a JC prog..i didnt expect any secondary school to be there.Ok..even if there was, not NAS. i guess thanks to Mr Chua Chor Huat and Mdm Ashikin, NAS kids are provide the opportunities to go for such prog.
Seeing the 2 juniors brought back many memoriesm. Just the sight of the uniform and their behaviors..haha..In them, i saw some resemblence of myself..almost a reflection..Kwee haan said jezer is talkative..Alex said i yakked too much! haha..he and kh had to dare me to keep quiet for 5mins *embarrassed look*
Seeing my past self wasnt that bad..it was the constant reminder of you. Before knowing you, i hardly heard of people with your name..what more your surname.
But after you left, people with your name kept entering my life..so yeap, i met someone of the same name as you. Ha! why should a name affect me that much! it shouldnt..really it shouldnt! but it still did.when i want to msg him, i would chance upon your name and number and i would want to msg you..just to check hows life. When i chat with him online, i see your name in his nick.
Please stay quietly in my memories.
For you are already in my heart and mind (constantly).
Because besides you, someone else has made his way into my heart too.
For you shall be the memories of my past, present and future .
And him, my present.
Sometimes i wish i can meet you.
To prove to myself...
that i have moved on.
that i have left you in the past.
that it was mere coincidence and not fate.
that i have grown and become stronger, through my own efforts.
Sometimes i wish you would tell me everything is all but a nightmare.
A short nightmare to groom me to be a better person
And that you would wake me up when its time,
telling me everything is back to normal and assure me once again.
Contradictions?
yeap...thats me, my life.
Full of contradictions.
Full of mixed emotions.
Confusing?
yeap, i am truely so.
Need someone to catch me when i fall?
yeap, that would be greatly appreciated.
Is it possible?
i dont know..do you?
If you do know, would you?
Please whisper in my ears, for i would not know whats going through your heart and mind.
Tell me if its true.
Dont keep me in the dark. Please dont.
For im tired.
Tired of guessing.
Tired of taking chances.
Tired of trying to interpret your words and actions.
Guessing games. Inference games. Waiting games.
fun at the beginning, draining as it carry on.
Will you end them?
Dear Lord above,
i seek your guidance and strength to overcome obstacles.
With you by my side,
anything and everything is possible.
For your love shall bring us through difficult times and bring warmth to our heart when it begins to freeze.
