Frustrations... Frustrated with... Life Studies Myself Him Everything
All these frustrations bottled up inside for so long. Want to scream. Want to cry. Want to let them all out. Want to just be in your arms. Want to hide and cuddle under my covers. Want to blast music. Want to blade and ice skate non stop. Want to feel the wind in my hair. Want to blade real fast with the wind in my face. Want to drink milkshake to cool the heat in me. Want to be left alone. Want to be around people. Want the silence. Want the noise to distract. Want to love my life and stop being frustrated when i could actually change the situation.
Today we went blading.Fun.enjoyable.sunburnt.Laughters.hysterical.silence.speed.friends. Didnt want to talk. Didnt want to interact much. Didnt want to smile. Want the silence. Want the breeze. Want the speed. Want the adrenaline rush. Want to laugh. Want to smile. Want to be happy. Want to bring happiness to others.
Contradictions... Happy on the outside. Unhappy on the inside. Unhappy on the outside. Happy on the inside. Love. Tired of loving. Loved. Dont feel it. Silence. Noise needed. Alone. Presence needed. Want to hide. Want to be out in the open.
The pain has always been in me. No matter how much i tried to be truely happy. It could be mask the pain for that moment. I guess i just need you and time alone.
~> Him
~> Good grades & health for everyone
~> Sony digital recorder VoicePlus ICD-U70(1GB)/ICD-U60(512MB)/ICD-U50(26MB)
~> Electronic chinese dictionary
~> Sony T20
~> A Orange Crumpler
~> A bedroom,totally designed by me
~> Navel piercing
~> Scooter license
~> Scooter
~> Shopping spree(new clothes and accessories)
> Play the guitar
> Play the piano
> Drive
> Nightcycle
> Nightblade
> Scuba dive
> Wakeboard
> Cableboard
> Get toned abs
> Get my kayaking 2nd star
* Graduate with double degree 1st class honours.
* Mug everyday.
* Maintain a healthy lifestyle.Exercise Execise
* Reach my ideal weight of 48-50kg.
