Its late.past 12 midnight. aint mugging though. kinda sad when i can stay up for invalid reasons, but the sight of work puts me to sleep.haha. Last year, a heavy painful feeling was in my heart. for a year and more, it stayed there. numbing most emotions of mine. But friends are always there for me, cheering for me, listening to my complaints and sometimes just by being there silently while i sort out my thoughts.thanks guys. you guys were great, but the cause of that feeling isnt found in our present lives. This year, it disappeared.well sorta. the burden in me was finally disappearing! bit by bit! At the beginning i was confused as i didnt think a simple sentence from you could do such a miracle to me.but it did. And everyone could see i was truely happy. but something isnt right. you and i both know its not the right path we are taking. yes it would be beneficial for me, my studies, future etc. but is it what i truely want? what i truely seek in life? will it 100% benefit me? Right now, my answer is yes and no. yes, its the most logical path. No, cause it isnt what my heart truely wants. The same heavy feeling came back again. But i will persevere! if i could do it for 1yr ++. what more is 6more months? why im always blogging about heart matters? cause its simply the only aspect of my life that could lift and crush my hopes and emotions. and maybe i trust my heart more than my mind.
~> Him
~> Good grades & health for everyone
~> Sony digital recorder VoicePlus ICD-U70(1GB)/ICD-U60(512MB)/ICD-U50(26MB)
~> Electronic chinese dictionary
~> Sony T20
~> A Orange Crumpler
~> A bedroom,totally designed by me
~> Navel piercing
~> Scooter license
~> Scooter
~> Shopping spree(new clothes and accessories)
> Play the guitar
> Play the piano
> Drive
> Nightcycle
> Nightblade
> Scuba dive
> Wakeboard
> Cableboard
> Get toned abs
> Get my kayaking 2nd star
* Graduate with double degree 1st class honours.
* Mug everyday.
* Maintain a healthy lifestyle.Exercise Execise
* Reach my ideal weight of 48-50kg.
