Spring Blossom, Autumn Sorrows

Tuesday, July 25, 2006

Change is the only constant.
To Love is Nice...
To Be Loved is a Blessing...
To Love and Be Loved is a Nice Blessing.
Your arms are my castle, your heart is my sky.They wipe away tears that I cry.
Save me from myself
Beautiful disaster in the making...

she told the story ... 9:35 PM

Friday, July 21, 2006

Moodswings...
Argh!!! Not again!!
Are promises made to be broken?

she told the story ... 12:16 AM

Sunday, July 16, 2006

Where'd you go?
Where'd you go?
I miss you so,
Seems like it's been forever,
That you've been gone.

She said 'Some days I feel like sh**,
Some days I wanna quit, and just be normal for a bit,
'I don't understand why you have to always be gone,
I get along but the trips always feel so long,
And, I find myself tryna stay by the phone,
'Cause your voice always helps me when I feel so alone,
But I feel like an idiot, workin' my day around the call,
But when I pick up I don't have much to say,
So, I want you to know it's a little f***ed up,
That I'm stuck here waitin', at times debatin',
Tellin' you that I've had it with you and your career,
Me and the rest of the family here singing

'Where'd you go?
'I miss you so,
Seems like it's been forever,
That you've been gone.
Where'd you go?
I miss you so,
Seems like it's been forever,
That you've been gone,
Please come back home...

You know the place where you used to live,
Used to barbeque up burgers and ribs,
Used to have a little party every Hallowe'en with candy by the pile,
But now, you only stop by every once in a while,
sh**, I find myself just fillin' my time,
Anything to keep the thought of you from my mind,
I'm doin' fine, I plan to keep it that way,
You can call me if you find you have somethin' to say,
And I'll tell you, I want you to know it's a little f***ed up,
That I'm stuck here waitin', at times debatin',
Tellin' you that I've had it with you and your career,
Me and the rest of the family here singing

'Where'd you go?
'I miss you so,
Seems like it's been forever,
That you've been gone.
Where'd you go?
I miss you so,
Seems like it's been forever,
That you've been gone,
Please come back home...

I want you to know it's a little f***ed up,
That I'm stuck here waitin', no longer debatin',
Tired of sittin' and hatin' and makin' these excuses,
For while you're not around, and feeling so useless,
It seems one thing has been true all along,
You don't really know what you got 'til it's gone,
I guess I've had it with you and your career,
When you come back I won't be here and you'll can sing it...

Where'd you go?
I miss you so,
Seems like it's been forever,
That you've been gone.
Where'd you go?
I miss you so,
Seems like it's been forever,
That you've been gone,
Please come back home...
Please come back home...
Please come back home...
Please come back home...
Please come back home.

she told the story ... 11:37 AM

This Week
hmmm. Lets focus on the happy moments ba. Did ok for Bio and Chem midyears. Had fun in school despite the increasing stress level and laziness = X The week past by so quickly and soon it was friday.As usual, i became darn lazy and wanted to pon tkd. But there was a strange feeling in me, telling me to just go. So i did. Finally! After 3 and 1/2 years. Had a great time training with them again, esp with sandy. At the end of it, my legs were kinda weak. No wonder, i lost some balance in my legs, because i quit tkd and the strength in it slowly disappear. Well, im gonna stay in tkd, take grading in march and go for conversion to senior(shld have convert in sec2, but oh wells.) and hopefully capable enough to take part in competitions and tournaments next year. = )
however, while i was gone, something bad happened. My white chicken, as usually clumsy, could sleep and topple to the ground, fracturing her left leg *heart break* and she kept lying down, closing her eyes, breathing was so shallow. hai. So i held her in my arms till 1 am plus but decided to let her sleep in her basket by my bed, praying that she would be okay. Didnt want to go for campfire as i wanted to be home early. But then, mummy said she was getting better today = ) yippeee!
Jon's birthday
We went ice skating and watched pirates. Great time skating and i have learnt how to skate backwards with the help of jon and aud. the movie ended quite sudden, but still humorous to watch. haha. Even the train ride was interesting as we disturbed ben and i got pranked. But it ended off nicely with us getting our toy project materials and dinner at long john.
Guides and Scouts Campfire

when i was on the bus heading to Ngee Ann, i got a shock. the field was filled with many many scouts , people and structures.Truely Magnificant!Luckily i listened to that tiny feeling in me and went. =) At first, we sorta participated in the singing etc. But we subsequently decided to take photos. So with guan as photographer, phoebe and i head out to search for ideal places to take pics at. We grew tired afterwhile and found a nice place near the campfire to talk and rest. hehe. For the rest of the campfire, we stayed there, chatting with whoever that came by and enjoying the music, with occasional guan's singing. It was a memorable night and we headed home as we were exhausted. I really miss those days.truely do.

I saw you from a distance. I was laughing and you were busy. So near yet felt so distant. The sight of you made me realised that deep down inside i miss you alot. But there wasnt much pain.Have i moved on? Am i ready to do so? Do i want to? dont feel like thinking about it. you are busy, always busy. i saw you ran here and there. glimpse of you brought happiness to me. im afraid i was actually hoping to see you. you came up from behind, but there was much silence from you. too much that it was hurting and deafening. was it because i didnt really acknowledge your presence? or was it you? you looked exhausted, i wanted to hold you tight and let you rest. but i couldnt. i kept hoping, wishing. but nothing happened as usual. your silence made me confused and exhausted. im tired of playing the guessing game, tired of your silence. So much that im forcing myself to move on.

she told the story ... 12:48 AM

Tuesday, July 11, 2006

Welcome to the Pig Family! *oink oink*
Benjamin Chan Yan Jun: Greedy pig
Jonathan Teo Wei Loong: Sleepy pig
Adeline Tan Hui Chen: Lazy pig
Lee Yan Cheng: Headless pig( to be confirmed)
to be continued...*oink*

she told the story ... 11:04 PM

Sunday, July 09, 2006

Ironic You
You caught my eyes and attention. You stole my heart. You argued with me and left me speechless. You gave me your heart and i gave you mine. You made everything alright. You made life interesting and fun. You made me felt like the luckiest and happiest girl on earth. You brought out the best and worst of me. You put the biggest grin on my face and in my heart. You are always there for me and my nonsense.
You left the deepest cut in me. You broke my heart. You left me shattered. You taught me how to pick myself up. You made me stronger but weaker. You gave me reasons to let go. You gave me reasons to stay on. You...

she told the story ... 5:03 PM

Friday, July 07, 2006

These days...
i have been thinking alot, really alot. Dreaming about another life i could be having if some good choices were made. I kept regretting, picking myself up. The cycle repeated nonstop. And i guessed, he heard my cries and helped by providing an alternative. It isnt exactly what i regretted about, but almost good enough. I thought through real hard, whether i should accept this alternative.It requires lots of determination, peseverance and will power. So hopefully im able to bring myself through this period of time.it seems im alone on this path i chose.Family and friends will be by my side, but there is something still missing. I know who it is, but why pin for something that you might never obtain. Time waits for no one and if time were wasted pinning and hoping for such stuff, that would be wrong. Right now, there is certainly many other stuff that i need to attend to. So i guess i shall leave it to fate and him to decide the future of us. Whatever choice he makes, that will bring him happiness and its what he wants, i would support it and him.

Jia Yo Adeline! You can do it! = )

she told the story ... 11:25 PM

Monday, July 03, 2006

World Cup Failure
England out. Brazil out.
Ade:brazil gone.england gone.hai
Ken:dun wan watch world cup le.we must avenge them by getting GOOD SCORES IN OUR A and O lvl.
Ade:yeap! lol.siao siao.weird theory.but ok!hehe

World cup failure is a motivation. = ) oh wells..thats how you find motivation in darkness.*grins*
But its okay. im gonna support germany and portugal. Germany cause they are good. Portugal for cristiano ronaldo *grins widely* haha. So jia yo!
And... im determined to pick myself up from this 1yr old ++ mess. Because of it, i quit ODAC, i dropped a subject, missed out so many once in a lifetime opportunities.And thats gonna stop NOW! It wasnt totally to be blamed. But the truth is last year, many of my decisions made had it as a major deciding factor.Finally i was able to see how blinded and foolish i was, to allow the hurt and past to haunt my present and future.I may missed out on all the fun and bonding in ODAC, dropped a subject i really love, lose my ODAC family. But thats all in the past. I have only my future to control and change and i aint gonna let others control it anymore. What ben said was right, it wasnt about luck.It was my attitude that created the present. Sec school years were great as i was in charge of my life. All the decisions i made were for the good of my future. But my jc years were screwed, simply because i let my emotions and past control my actions.Enough is enough. It would be a long and tedious route back. But with my family and friends by my side, anything is possible! *grins* Because i say so = P
So ... from today on...its the making of the New Adeline being her (good)old self!
Erm guys? Wanna help me along the way, when i do fall back into the darkness ? = )

she told the story ... 10:16 PM

Saturday, July 01, 2006

30th June

Friday,was the day of our Biology Paper 3.An option paper.Meaning its stuffing one's mind with growth &development, asexual and sexual repro.Come to think of it, its probably those boys that are good in sexual repro right? = X but not quite true in the end. Too much terms and info just put them off. Even sexual intercourse couldnt keep them awake = / haha. This was probably the better paper for midyear. screwed up pretty badly again .hai.But it seems i have gotten used to it, the screwing up in JC. =P

So after the paper, thats when the fun starts! 2different outings in a day! Wheee~ And the best part is my parents didnt scold or complain, they only asked if i had my meals and spent how much = ) though my momma did say she shouldnt have let me drop physics ..hahaha.

So 1st outing...

Jon, Aud, Cheng, xp , ben and me. the usual group.cher couldnt come.hai.but its ok, you shall see why later on = P . I want to go town, but jon aud xp wanna go home early.cheng wasnt around YET. ben..hmmm..cant really remember..haha!

And des and peeps were meeting at city hall at 2:30pm. So we were invited to join them if we want to. they were going home 1st to change and rest.We chose tampines mall and as the cinema was still closed.we headed to toys r' us, our usual hang out place =P but we got bored after awhile and decided to play hide and seek with cheng, since he was gonna meet us there.He is a bio-dropper, oprah-watcher, failed prankster.hehe. 1st one found by him loses.A lesson learnt was that never to hide with a tall friend.hehe. was playing some kid's ABC game and he found us! because of xp's head = P so the loser is xp's head!

And finally we managed to watch Just My Luck. Great show, though some part is rather silly.But the romance factor was there and it caught my heart in the end. =X but pity we didnt stay behind after the credits.hai.Diff school, diff people, diff friends, diff habits. serious.hehe..used to just sit there till the credits are over for any suprises of the movie.And when we headed out of the theatre. There it was! wide open doors of another theatre. Meaning ? A new show was about to begin.A movie to sneak into! but it seems only cheng shares the same interest as me =X hehe. so oh wells, missed a chance to sneak into the show.felt weird. fast forward.

Aud and jon went home 1st. And as ben cheng and i dont wanna go home so soon. We followed xp to challenger. my 1st time there = ) hehe.and followed cheng to buy his dinner at 2 plus.then we headed to our buses while xp took his train.

The crazy little feeling in me took control, and i mass message peeps to join them in their prog. felt kinda thick skin though = X then i remember that des and peeps are at orchard.

So met up with cher then with david then with alex des and jaryl.We walked down orchard road and had dinner at sakae sushi.student's buffet.the service there aint good.Food were nice though.then cher went to meet her family for dinner and i head home while the guys go for their gaming. And im back home.

she told the story ... 1:39 PM