Spring Blossom, Autumn Sorrows

Wednesday, January 31, 2007

那一年顶楼加盖的阁楼　什么人忘了锁

是谁找不到　未满十八岁的我

你是一滴滴隐形的眼泪　风一吹就乾了

只能这样了　是吗

同时甜蜜与心碎　是你的幽默　还是温柔

是瞬间烟火　还是不甘寂寞　第一次你抱紧我

轻轻的亲亲　紧紧闭着眼睛

是你不是你　说不定　还不一定

梦一样轻的亲亲　不敢用力呼吸

不敢太贪心　太相信　我的幸运　百分之百是你

思念被时光悄悄的摇落　酸酸的咬一口

青春的苹果　香香的催眠了我

是你脸粉红了我的耳后　烫伤了我额头

现在想起来　会痛

同时甜蜜与心碎　是你的幽默　还是温柔

是瞬间烟火　还是不甘寂寞　第一次你抱紧我

轻轻的亲亲　紧紧闭着眼睛

是你不是你　说不定　还不一定

梦一样轻的亲亲　不敢用力呼吸

不敢太贪心　太相信　我的幸运　百分之百是你

亲亲

she told the story ... 9:26 PM

Differences between locals and overseas shows.
Local shows have storyline with extreme stupidity, showing all the worst stupid scenarios.
Overseas shows have storyline with substance, knowing their limit of stupidity.
Local shows, i look forward only to find out how the director ends the stupid plot.
Overseas, i look forward because it keeps viewers in suspense and anticipation as there may always be a twist in the plot.
Local's storyline repeats.
Overseas's have occasional new plots but audience are still able to relate to them, so it aint that far-fetched like our locals.
Just my point of view.

she told the story ... 8:12 PM

Sunday, January 28, 2007

The Seven Wonders of the World

1. To See.

2. To Hear.

3. To Touch.

4. To Taste.

5. To Feel.

6. To Laugh.

7. To Love.

she told the story ... 1:37 PM

Many people seek fulfillment through expecting or demanding that other people "fill" the emptiness inside them. The problem is...no one else is qualified to do that.
So, loneliness and insecurities persist, and when they do, the search for answers continues in all the wrong places. People continue longing to be filled up by other people who don't even know how to fill themselves up. So, there are all these people looking for answers in others who don't have them.
No wonder people are frustrated, sad, and feel lost.

she told the story ... 1:32 PM

I read a story of two horses in a field.
Incredibly, one horse is blind. If you get close enough to him, you can hear the sound of a bell. On further examination, you'll see that the bell is attached to the halter of the smaller horse. It helps her blind friend know where she is, so he can follow where she leads. When they go back to the barn each evening, she stops and looks back periodically, making sure her friend is still close enough to hear the ring...and follow.
Our lives work much the same way. Sometimes we are the blind horse...guided by the ringing bell of people God has placed in our life. Other times we are the guide horse, helping others around us to see and find their way.

she told the story ... 1:28 PM

The 5 Stages of Break-up Grief (or other grief):

1st: Denial.

2nd: Anger.

3rd: Bargaining.

4th: Depression.

5th: Acceptance.

she told the story ... 12:37 PM

Part of the journey of achieving self-actualization

is that you have to reach it on your own

without help or guidance from others.

Otherwise, you wont feel as keen a sense of accomplishment.

Self-actualization

she told the story ... 12:19 PM

Saturday, January 27, 2007

I know how it feels.

How it feels to keep losing the people you love.

How it feels to keep getting hit with bad surprises.

You learn to deal with them.

Right or Wrong,

You learn to deal with them the very best you can.

Live life to its fullest.

Live each day to its fullest.

As each of these days creates the future.

Life.

she told the story ... 9:38 PM

Sunday, January 21, 2007

And if something is not meant to be,

no matter what you do,

there's nothing you can do to make it right.

Fate.

she told the story ... 5:03 PM

Friday, January 19, 2007

I can pinpoint it to that exact time

when my heart hardened into an impenetrable block of ice,

impervious to anything but the most superficial scratch,

leaving me able to shed an occasional tear at the melodrama of others' lives,

but otherwise permanently embedded in emotional permafrost.

My heart had been hermetically sealed against deeper cuts.

Protected.

she told the story ... 8:51 PM

Thursday, January 18, 2007

The person in my memories will not be the person now.

Talking to del always makes me feel better inside and more clear-headed =)
Looking at his picture now, he sure have grown up. Lost weight and looking better than ever. haha. think his skin is gonna get thicker again. =P poly does wonders to people. sometimes i look at his pic and think, " is he the di di i knew in sec 2?" haha. he still sounds the same, wiser now though. but the usual, thick-skinned! it runs in the family uh or was it class? cant help but remember that most of my sec 2 friends are thick-skinned. i sure miss them alot, esp the chalets. haha. those were the days. innocent rumors, crushes, family.

hmmm. i dedicated an entry to you del. honoured? =P ohya, just remembered, ivan wants to organise a 2E5 chalet. was supposed to msg jc people while he contact poly peeps. but ooops..it slipped my mind. =X what do you think del?

she told the story ... 8:15 PM

*grins* After 3 days of hard work with 120 over patients each day, finally its a resting day. So little patients today. but got "scolded" by my seniors. they want me to have a proper lunch which cannot be sandwiches. hai. they will smack my bum if i do so again.haha. cause apparently my job requires lots of energy and they told me that we naturally slim down after working. with the long hours on our feet and the cold cold air con, i guessed it might be possible uh. but that's good for me, since i want to lose some weight. =)

hmmm. i got patients giving praises, guessing my age, my nationality, qualifications, asking about my studies and dreams. But this one patient make me wonder, should i go on a tour? not with family, but with friends. To see the world, clear my thoughts and feelings, prepare for uni. But with who. Everyone is either studying, working or in ns. where do i get such money to do so. And will my parents even allow. i once told them that i would do so after uni, they agreed. but what about now? haha. this is a great idea for controlled dreams.

Talking about controlled dreams.
Controlled dreams are dreams made consciously, with the dreamer wide awake, eyes open or closed. All the scenes are controlled by the dreamer, step by step. And i am hooked onto it.
hmmm. should i continue to do so?

Cuter and more good looking patients are turning up at the centre. All around our age. Esp today! A 21 year old cute techno guy turned up. his voice was somewhat gentle and cute.haha. hai. the best part was after i said " sir, here's your report. please bring it to the clinic." he looked at me. i looked at him, waiting for him to take his report from my hands (most patients would take immediately) but he just look back at me before taking it. hmmm... i think im terrible, always turning red whenever a cute patient comes in. =X

she told the story ... 8:11 PM

Tuesday, January 16, 2007

I am exhausted. Body aching. Neck aching. Shoulders aching. Everywhere's aching! And its only my 5th day of work? I seriously need a body massage. or at least a shoulder-neck massage.but only one person is able to apply the correct pressure and strength.hmmm.

I love my work. serious. i enjoy my routine. Probably ain't used to the hectic-ness and long hours. Was on my feet since 8am till 5pm. i gotta get used to it. Today was the record-breaking day, as said by my senior. the most number of patients. i have probably seen 60 over patients today. haha. now i know why my senior's hands look tired. mine look tired already.hmmm.

I am falling sick again.wonder if i was the one spreading the virus to others at nhc.since one by one, they are falling sick and taking mc.will they draw a link to me? hmmm.

i wanna snuggle under my blankie and not come out. tired and sore. BUT! i will persevere! haha! i will not give up that easily! (since work life is like this and study life is only 5 yrs more. oh wells.) I shall embrace my tiredness, soreness, patients' grouchy-ness, early hours, long hours...! haha!

What doesn’t kill you makes you stronger.

she told the story ... 8:31 PM

Sunday, January 14, 2007

Two years went by quickly and now its 2007.

In 2005, it was the darkest and loneliest period of my life. Probably the lowest point in life. I had a strong feeling of emptiness and heartache in me. I could only be happy on the outside, for the happiness and laughters could never reach my inside. Perhaps, many had noticed that, but kept quiet and distant. Liked what ben said, I was giving off negative vibes, probably because i didnt want to let anyone in as i wasnt in the state of accepting anyone into my heart. This makes me wonder and want to know how and what i was liked in 2005. But at the end of 2005 and beginning of 2006, a group of people entered my life. They were already a part of it, just not that significant.

In 2006, we got together and became Da Gang. Aud, Cher, Jon, Ben, Xp and me. We dont really know when, but it just happened. With the hectic and crazy studying periods, i guessed we got closer. Programme-planning was da gang and maybe some others. Every one of da gang have slowly and noisely/quietly made their way into my heart. I dont know how and when and even why. Maybe it was the laughters. the pranks. the time spent together. or even the occasional silent moments. Without permission, they occupy a spot in me, removing some of the emptiness and heartache. Since 2005, i have learnt to numb myself from pain. After knowing them, i have learnt to let happiness soothe the pain. I was and am truely happy with them by my side. And now, i'm missing every single one of them. Hoping to meet them real soon.
The emptiness, loneliness and pain is back again. Intensified by the rainy weathers, i guess.
Maybe i'm thinking too much. Maybe i'm day dreaming too often. Should stop controlling my dreams and let them flow as they wish to.
So many questions i need to ask. So many answers i need to know. I dont want to take the old road. the one to self destruction and depression. It took a hell lot of effort and determination to get off that road. i dont want to go back. I have already let go. Let go of him and the past. I want to move on. Move on with my life even if it means without him. But i just cant seem to do so. The heart and mind are still too weak. I need the answers. I need some answers to move on. Maybe i havent really let go, which is why i cant move on. I havent let go of the love and memories we shared. Maybe i havent really let him go, out of my heart. I know this would lead me to no where, which is why i want to move on. Start a new life with or without him in it. Thats my aim for now, to have a new life.

Another random feeling and thoughts.

she told the story ... 4:47 PM

War is what human beings do to each other when there is no morality left.

But what is morality?

Who is to determine what is right and what is wrong?

Some may argue that taking the life of an individual may be justified if it is for the greater good.

she told the story ... 4:37 PM

Friday, January 12, 2007

My new life. Are you in it.

she told the story ... 9:45 PM

Another long cold rainy day.
Emptiness. Loneliness. Sadness.
Shattered. Numbed. Chained.
A Beautiful Disaster. The Long Goodbyes.
Leave me alone. Take me away.

Another random feeling and thoughts.

she told the story ... 9:22 PM

Thursday, January 11, 2007

3rd day of work!
Its the 3rd day im working and it made me realized lots and lots of stuff (provided i do and can rmbr my realizations! >.<). Yeap...work's pretty much the same routine, learnt new stuffs and skills, take on more responsibilities and being let in on more colleagues' gossips..haha..so yeap..lets proceed to my realizations...

1st... i realized i love and hate work! ( as usual the love-hate thingy. lifes confusing me or am i confusing myself ? who cares~) I just love the interaction between the patients and us, the service we can provide them which helps make their lives better. i guess my ambition of being in the healthcare line as a doctor is right. But the working hours! aRgh! 8am to 5:30pm. after comparing with others, mine seems rather crazy esp with my pay. humph! but i get ultimate satisfaction and i aint tired despite hours of standing! ( self consolation >.< ). so basically, its the problem of waking up at 5:30 am, when the past few weeks im sleeping for almost the whole day if i am not out playing. 5:30am. 5;30am. Goodness! thats like going to school. hmmm. but put me on train to work and i will feel instantly energized, wonder where all those energy comes from..maybe thats why i can sleep better these days.

2nd... Most old people are coincidentally born on 1st jan.. maybe im ignorant or something. but with 3 days of keying in their info. i realised the similarities.hmmm..interesting..maybe for my next job, i should get one that allows me to interact with the younger generation to see if its a trend or something of the norm.

3rd... every 1min, i can earn 10 cents. this came to me, like on the 1st day of work. And was further emphasized on when i call in sick yesterday. i slept one day off like that *snap fingers* when i could have earn $51...hmmm..which makes me think..1min 10cents..10 mins a dollar...and so on..

4th... my junior made me realized something that was long realized. For 12years, it was a routine that i should be schooling now. hmmm..1 year back, i would be doing tutorials, convincing myself to study for blocks tests. 2 years back, i would be playing and thinking alot. 3 years..4 years back...it was the same routine with different people by my side. things change so quickly and now im working to earn money. next would be university. am i ready for the change? am i prepared? shall think about this another time..Now..its...sleeping time! *grins*

OHYA, had a great time with da gang, too bad it aint the complete da gang. miss them sooooo much... cant imagine life without them.. at least jc life without them and now without them...jon is going in tmr. oh wells. see him next 2 weeks.. in the meantime. To Da Gang, i miss you guys so much! Take cares of yourself and we gotta have more da gang outings! God bless all of you.

NiteX

Change is the only constant. But the past will never be forgotten.

she told the story ... 10:36 PM

Wednesday, January 10, 2007

The Substitute
Substitute: a person or thing that takes the place or function of another.
When a guy/girl breaks up with his/her other half, he/she might fall for another person, subconsciously using her/him as a substitute of the other half. In the previous entry, it was a feeling developed by the former for the latter. But in this case, its what the former can get from the latter, things that were lost after the break-up. Intangible things such as love, care and warmth. If the latter is a friend or someone the former had just met, friendship could be at stake as when time passes by, both would know whats actually happening. When the former knows that his/her actions are of such reasons, it would be best not to start any relationship till he/she is emotionally stable and have already moved on. Ignorance could be used as an excuse. But if the former knowingly continues on, such character and attitude would be questionable. Using others as a substitute to soothe the inner hurt at their expenses is simply unforgivable as others would get hurt in the process.

Letting go is difficult. Once you have let go, its time to move on. But moving on is even more difficult and would need more efforts and determination. It would be worse if someone is dragged into it. After moving on, your heart would slowly be open and ready to love once again. Thats when you are prepared to accept someone else into your heart and life.

I guess i have been in such situations many times. And in these many times, i was so so tempted to just allow a relationship to begin, simply for the comforts and love it can and will bring into my shattered life. At the lowest point and darkest period of my life, i need someone to hold onto to stay afloat and not drown myself in tears and sorrows. I am too used to the warmth and love i once had and was constantly given. Now those were all gone with the winds, leaving me behind. But i know it would be wrong and terrible if i gave in to temptations. I dont want to use anyone as a substitute for him, cause the truth is...no one can be his substitute. Everyone is unique and special in their own ways. There is only one him and will be only one him.

The End.

我承认我还没忘了他.我还是会想他.

she told the story ... 8:28 PM

The Bouncing-back stone
There is the stepping stone and thus i created the bouncing-back stone. When a guy/girl breaks up with his/her other half or gets rejected, the next person he/she likes or fall for immediately is called the bouncing-back stone. Bouncing-back as such feelings and emotions that the person(A) has for the next person(B) might be fleeting, sudden and seldom last or develop further. The next person could become a bouncing-back stone or a substitute, both are different in nature.

But why do i call it the bouncing-back? Simply because A would be hurt and emotional at that period of time and anyone that comes by and can allow A to hold onto and can comfort him/her even for the moment, A would grasp that opportunity. It may be thought of as like or love, but its simply infatuation that will fade in time. But if A simply gives himself/herself time to regain his/her footing and gain control of emotions, B might after all not be a bouncing-back stone.

When anyone gets rejected or ditched, his/her friends would be by his/her side and often one of the friends might become this stone. When that happens, a friendship could be at stake. For should they get together or ignore such feelings? If they get together and later realised that such feelings are temporary and long gone, what would become of their friendship. Its never easy to be friends with your ex though many have said " we will still be friends after we break up". Truth is it would be awkward for both parties. But if they ignored and continue as friends, soon that feelings would disappear and things would be back to normal.

As friends, we stand by each other, being there for one another even through rejections and break-ups. To me, its always best to know where to draw the line between friends and more-than friends as every friendship is precious. There will be many moments when feelings develop and we aint sure if we like our friend in the boy-girl way or simply our friendship just became stronger.

Thus, for myself, whenever a friend gets rejected or ditched, i would be there for him, but there must always be a limit to how much care and love i can provide as i treasure our friendship as much as our hearts. Broken hearts and friendships are hard to mend. I guess its this thinking of mine that made me set some principles for myself, to always stay clear of having relationships with such friends as it would complicate the friendship that we once shared.

The End. (this entry is solely based on my views)

Time heals all wounds. But scars remains.

she told the story ... 7:00 PM

3rd day of work.
Actually, it should be my 3rd day of work, but i didnt go to work, so is it still the 3rd day? heeehee..may not be after all. I didnt want to stay home today,esp when the attachment students wouldnt be there to help with the ECGs and Wednesday are busy days, meaning my senior would be extra busy. hai. but after taking the new medicine, i have clogged-up airways and shaking limbs. no kidding! my arms and legs are shivering for no reasons. So my dad said it was better not to go, for i might scare the patients with my shaking hands when i help them with their ECG tests and i should spend one day getting well for gd. So oh wells, since i was still dazed and drowsy, i msged the IC and went back to sleep. Till now my limbs are still shaking. Mummy just told me that it was one of the side effects of one of the medicine i took last night for asthma. Apparently only some people would experience such side effects.haahaa..

I cant wait for tmr! Can see my friends and patients again (hopefully without coughs anymore, think i passed some virus to them =X ) ! And most imptly! i can meet Da gang again! miss them sooo much. these days, if we do go out, its always a part of Da gang and not the whole group. i pray tmr it would be all 6 of us *grins* Okies..think i should go back to bed for my 2nd naptime.

Nitex!

May i see all of you in my dreams.

she told the story ... 2:09 PM

Tuesday, January 09, 2007

A trip to the doctor.
After having sore throats for weeks, cough and medicine-testing for days, i decided to visit the docs to de-sensitive my throat. And the docs says that it was very dry cough(the usuals) but could be due to one or two reasons.
1. Nasal backflow, fluid from the nose backflow into my throat thus constantly irritating my throat.
or 2. oversensitive/ overactive airways in the lungs.
or both.
So yeap, got medicine for both possible reasons. For the past few days, it was 1 type of medicine per symptoms. Yesterday it was 2 types per symptoms, mummy brought back better ones. but those better ones irritated my raw air passages and it was back to the usuals. Today....haaahaa...ate my medicine as per norm. BUT with the two addition types..woah!!! feeling giddy and drowsy now..heeheee..thus heavily drugged >.<

OHYA, the doc asked if i have a boyfriend, which i said no. And heres what he said....
Dont go for ns boys. i will tell my daughters not to also because ns boys are boys with very low esteem...wahahaha..he got reasons to back it up.. and i stress that this is coming from a male grown up thus lesser biasness
1. ns boys hardly see girls -> no ego booster?
2.ns boys wont be studying -> no further exceling in academics?
3. ns boys everyday bang bang (guns sound) -> somehow have effects on guys.
4. attached ns boys have very lonely girlfriend and little time with her -> abit more problems with communication as like many have heard...breakups.

hahaha...but what he said have truths in them if you heard them straight from him, so yeap...lets wait till Uni, shall we? think i better sleep soon...soo....

Nitex....

Who will i see in my dreams tonight.

she told the story ... 10:45 PM

2nd day of work!
1st day im wearing my new uniform.Love it.hehe.feels more comfy than mjc's and nicer colour too. Will try to take a pic of it and upload later.

lets see...what happened today. basically its a routine that was sloppy in its pace. slow...moderate...fast(the peak)...moderate...slow.haha.. the cardiac lab looks and feels sooo empty in the morning when its just us(working people here to serve you), with occasional laughthers from us. today there were younger patients, but still age 30 and above. but, there was 2 cute eye candies. they came at 7:50 and provided a nice view for us girls =X hmmm..wonder why one of them is wearing a holter ( 24 hour ECG machine).oh wells, ec will always be ec. the smiles from patients and well wishes from them feels so comforting. the short short breaks in between were nice reliefs for our feets. So in short, i guessed i found a nice and suitable job for myself. lets wait till a month has past then we shall see if its still nice and suitable..heehee..Think i should do do my "homework", gotta copy my seniors notes about procedures etc..soooo

Tata~

Ugghh...sick.sick.sick.sick of being sick of being sick.

she told the story ... 7:32 PM

Monday, January 08, 2007

My 1st day of work!
Today marks the 1st day of work for me! It is the 1st time im working to earn money from outsiders(meaning not from my parents). Actually work is like school. Early mornings, required attire, seniors and people to report to, routines, scheduled lunch break, canteen, rules and... the constant staring at the clock, hoping its time to go home =)

Decided to be early since its the 1st day and shouldnt be in a hurry and late. Arriving at the HR office, i met another girl who was also at the interview that i went for. She was chosen for clerk and me as the medical technologist. Upon entering a conference room to settle some paperwork, i started coughing like crazy, keep rocking in my chair. Think i scared the hr lady.haha, but the paperwork was completed and we were brought to our respective "office"

A medical technologist does most cardio tests for patients and im in charge of the electrocardiogram(ECG in short). But this is more complex than those we saw in our science labs and no, we cant be external stimuli to give a "shock" to our patients. So it was much of a routine. Paperwork, setting up of the ECG for patients and more paperwork and computer work. so yeap. thats my job. But the working environment is great, the people there are friendly and motherly. Lucky me i guess. Ohya... and lucky me again cause i met an old friend of 4 years at my working place! i met yi wen! hehe. she has been working there for 6months as an SP biomedical attachment student. it was indeed a pleasant surprise *grins* hmmm..i better start brushing up on my dialects and chinese since im interacting with mostly elderly people. The youngest was our age, 18 years, poor kid, such a young age going for heart checkup.hai. And i better get better soon, don wanna scare my patients with my coughs and worse pass them my virus >.<
God answers to our prayers. i prayed on thursday that a call about my recruitment would come in the next day and that i wanna have the position of medical technologist. And it happened =) i prayed last night that i would recover and feel better for today and to have a good rest. Well, it did kinda happened, abit by abit, but its still a progress. =)

Medical technologist...some call us...
Medical technologist
Medical techno( i call myself that ..heheehee)
Medical tech
Med techs ( Mad tags..haaahahaa..since we are constantly tagging patients with electrodes )

Well, that's all for today i guess. i need my rest and fluid and medicine. So for now..byebye..
OHYA..DA GANG, msg me whether you are free on thursday evening, to have dinner with jon or something. thanks guys.

LET me be fluidified, restified, drugged and dialectified!!

she told the story ... 6:58 PM

Saturday, January 06, 2007

Sick.
Hai. Been sick since a few weeks ago. thought the sore throat and flu were gone by this week. But it came back and sorta affected my ice skating trip with Aud and Jon. It kept me at home today and its threatening to do so for tmr, meaning i cant go out with da gang tmr =( maybe we should meet up for dinner on thursday night or something, before jon goes into ns the next morning. What do you think guys?

Hate being sick, esp when its flu.
1st its sore throat, then coughing with phelgm then flu then aching joints and fever. i think i rather get bitten by mosquitoes than fall sick like this as it kept me awake for nights as i kept coughing. But it made me realised something, kelly loves me alot. throughout these nights, she would sit at my bedroom door then by my bed, constantly guarding me. And when i wake up to go into the kitchen or toilet, she would follow me around. =) was thinking about getting her a puppy to keep her company, since she is already quite old and probably would enjoy the companionship of a pup.But this means i gotta work harder since buying a pup cost $1260 and still gotta get more doggy stuffs. hmmm..maybe i will get another job and earn more. Hopefully i get better soon, by tmr since im starting work on monday. *grins*

she told the story ... 8:26 PM

Thursday, January 04, 2007

With or without your presence were the same,
The sight of you or the thought of you,
There's no respite from aching,
My heart is heavy and tired,
I hear the voices within me,
Telling me that the suffering should come to an end,
That I should break the chains of melancholy.

Since you came into my life,
I knew ~~not~~ of joyful days,
I knew ~~not~~ that love felt like this,
With just one glance and you changed the whole of me,
Yet didn't you realize you've turned me into a child,
Who would just break down and cry, and so I questioned,
How many heartstrings must you sever?
- Damien Lockheart

Without a single hesitation
Without thought or reservation
Baby, I'll be waiting even if I never see your face
And wings take you away from me
And tomorrow never happens, baby
If the world comes tumbling down
And crumbles all around us
Fate turns cruel, you're on your knees
So desperate for one truth
Know that I have loved you
- "I Have Loved You " by Jessica Simpsons

she told the story ... 3:40 PM

Some nice quotes...

All our lives we search for someone who makes us complete.

We choose partners and change partners.

We dance the song of heartbreak and hope all the while,wondering if somewhere, somehow there is someone searching for us.

~~~

Dance as though no one is watching you.

Love as though you have never been hurt before.

Sing as though no one can hear you.

Live as though heaven is on earth.

~~~

Our lives are not determined by what happens to us but by how we react to what happens,

not by what life brings to us, but by the attitude we bring to life.

A positive attitude causes a chain reaction of positive thoughts, events, and outcomes.

It is a catalyst, a spark that creates extraordinary results.

~~~

she told the story ... 3:36 PM

lazy days
lonely nights
looking for a lonely star
who'd keep me company

looking at the widespread sky
being me a lonely soul
gazing at the moon so bright
making wishes upon a star

a blow of breeze
to animate
the freezing scene

so the strings of white gold ribbons
seem to tease the lonely moon
because it is standing still
and they are free to move

"twinkle twinkle little star . . . "
I used to sing when I was young
now I've grown but still today
" . . . how I wonder what you are"

lying down upon the meadows
dream of flying up so high
reach the stars, sit on the moon
dancing ballet with the clouds

she told the story ... 3:30 PM

Holding Hands.
When hands are held, as simple as it may be, many seldom think deeper, that it is a bond between 2 person, a silent promise that both will be there for one another.
A small simple action, when his hand is in yours.
A reminder of lost love, when the touch is gone.
With your hands empty, this emptiness fills the heart.
When was the 1st time i held his hands? When was the last and why was it the last. Who initiated the holding and letting go.
i cant remember. Cant remember the moments clearly. Cant remember the reasons and answers.
But here i am, with hands longing for your touch, heart searching for whats lost.
Why do we not treasure what we have till its gone.
Taking things for granted and losing them only to realise their importance.
Lets hold hands and never let go, walk side by side, be there for one another. Shall we, my loved ones.

she told the story ... 3:18 PM

Loving Someone
When loving someone has become so painful, is it true love or a forsaken love? Is there love or just pain?
What is love? What is true love? What is the difference.
What are the answers? Are there even answers to these questions. Or have i simply forgotten them.

she told the story ... 3:11 PM